As Thanksgiving approaches, I cannot help but be reminded how much Lorrin loved this holiday. As I cooked, she loved how the house filled up with delicious aromas. I think my best memories were family and friends sitting around the table sharing stories, whilst Lorrin tasted the homemade pies, potatoes and gravy. Of all the holidays, Thanksgiving was her favorite. Don’t get me wrong, she loved dressing up for Halloween, getting gifts at Christmas and her birthday. But, one of the things Lorrin did best was to always be in the moment and be grateful for the day.
I am grateful for all that she taught me. This December will be 5 years since she has crossed over. As the holidays draw near, my body seems to have muscle memories of grief from years past. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t miss her. Every time I do, I try to remember the amazing lessons of love that she has taught me, I try to stay focused on being in the moment and enjoying life.
Today and every day I wake up and think of the things that I am grateful for before my feet hit the ground. Just the fact that I am alive gives me an opportunity to do my best to enjoy life; that is my responsibility. Some days I do better than others, but it is always in the back of my mind that I should be having fun! I will never forget her words of advice, “Mom, life is but a coffee break!”
Being a parent of a medically fragile child meant that I had many friends that I would have never met, if not for Lorrin and her uniqueness. Most of my friends today have come into my life through Lorrin. I have friends who are judges, lawyers, doctors, chiropractors, spiritual and intuitive workers, writers, nurses and make-up artists and many unique children, and their parents.
Today, I know that my belief system is based on all that Lorrin has taught me. I know that as long as I am here on this earth it is my responsibility to be happy and to live in the moment. I often fantasize what it would be like if Lorrin was not vaccine injured and lived her life as a healthy girl. I will never know. But I am proud of the life that we have together and grateful for all those who came into our lives to live, laugh, love and sometimes cry together. I am grateful for the woman I am today and I can honestly say I have learned, survived and grown from adversity.
I want to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving holiday. I hope that loved ones, good food and most of all good health surround you. Eat lots, laugh hard and be in the moment, there is nowhere else to be!